Funny it is! No it's not!

Funny it is to know that the people who taught us to appreciate the beauty of life are actually the same persons who made us realize how cruel life is. It keeps on bothering us that sometimes we tend to question what they have first taught us.
A girl named Jin values friendship a lot. She doesn’t belong to many groups but she is friendly. She met Myca a long time ago even before in high school. She was her classmate and a friend. Myca is just a simple girl like Jin. Her beauty becomes evident despite of her simplicity. She is such a smart kid. They soon became closed friends. Jin has friends but very few of them become her favorites. Myca is one of them. Actually, of all the years that Jin is living in this world, she has only 3 favorite friends. A year later, she met Ryue who is also a smart girl and has a very strong personality. She also became her closed friend. Jin, Myca and Ryue had a very tight bond which tied them together and their friendship grew stronger. They were always with each other doing the same things all over again. And then Jin just realized that not all the moments that they have shared were good. She felt out of place sometimes and tried to ignore it. No matter how she hid her feelings towards them, it was sometimes obvious that she was hurt. What she experienced was not that bad until she found out something. Their friendship wasn’t that good as before anymore. Jin did not know the reason why it happened. She asked herself that maybe they didn’t want to be with her anymore or they wanted to be with other people whom they can find the happiness that they want. It was obvious that Myca and Ryue were happier with their new group. Pia and Marie become members of the group they created and they named it “girls”. As the “girls” went to a particular place, Jin and her other friend Krisha joined them. They were having conversations. As they talked, Pia said something which made Jin think more than twice and it wasn’t funny for her. There was also an incident that Pia said something again that was so mean. Jin was really hurt because of what she heard. She did not show it but deep inside her heart was broken. That was the most painful statement Jin heard about them. She did not know if Pia intentionally said that or it was just an accident. But whatever it was, Jin could never change the fact that she got hurt. What Pia told her was “this is the proof of how happy we are together”. Jin felt the sharp thing stabbed her heart. She even told herself “What the hell is wrong with you? Are you that insensitive? I was the first one and not you. You have no right to say it. I am their friend. We shared some unforgettable moments together before you came into the picture.” And here’s the thing, it happened right before they will go on separate ways. It was really painful for her.
Jin still cannot forget that thing no matter how she tries to forget it. It happened so many years ago but still the wound is there.
Jin learned to appreciate life with them at the same time realized that life is sometimes bitter and cruel.

Such thing is so traumatic that it becomes the reason of being unable to move forward.

Happy Mother's Day

Today is happy mother's day. Too bad I did not greet my mother in person. It is not because I don't want to. It is just that I am shy. But deep inside I really wanted to say it. Anyways, I texted her instead. It just did it now. Even though I don't show my feelings towards my mother and sometimes she's annoying, I love her and I will always love her. She is doing her best just to give her daughters everything that she can give. She is such a busy person because of us. I'm proud of my mother. My father too.My grandparents too. And to everyone who helps my parents to raise us. I want to thank my mother for raising me. I really don't know what's my purpose here on earth. All I know is that I want to live not just for myself but for my family. If I have a job already I would give everything I can for my family. I am so thankful to be here because without my existence I couldn't have the chance to be with my mother and other members of my family.

Mama Jojo! Mama Men, Tita Angie, my late Lola Fernanda....... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU!

And to all the mother's on earth..... Happy Mother's Day!

Enough!

BEING BUSY IS NOT A BAD THING! It makes us so useful. It sometimes defines our existence. But EVEN IF WE ARE the greatest persons living, even if we have so many strengths, still we have limitations...

JUST GIVE TIME TO REST....



GO GET SOME SLEEP....

Disclaimer: I don't own this picture.

Do it Right!

This picture is taken on the internet.




A bad thing is still a bad thing but sometimes even if we know the difference between good and evil, we choose to be bad. We are born sinners. We make mistakes. We are just normal beings.

If you want to make mistakes and you don't want other people to know about it....
JUST DO IT RIGHT! DON'T LEAVE ANY EVIDENCE......

Damn..

Have you ever encountered being so much pressured for submitting your final paper? Or waiting for how many hours just to install a particular software? You did not even sleep for one whole day just to finish everything. You have already written so much. You waited for so long.

And you press this:



Isn't is so annoying? You did everything. And just because of your carelessness... You end up nothing.... You gain nothing... But YOU LOSE EVERYTHING.....
Damn!

Disclaimer: I don't own this picture. I don't know who made this. I only took this picture on the internet.

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding

Leona Lewis
Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

I love this song. The funny thing is that the only statements I know are "I'm in love with you. Keep Bleeding Keep Keep bleeding.And nothing more."

Forbidden Kingdom

I and my boardmate elvie watched forbidden kingdom last saturday in SM. The movie was funny and great.I laughed at loud because there were scenes which were so funny. I like Jet Li and Jackie Chan. They were really good in terms of kicking some ass. Their fighting scenes were great. I was moved.
Actually, I love to see people fight. It is not because I love chaos or I am a war freak. It is just I get so fascinated with martial arts. It is so awesome to watch people do their moves. I love watching people fly and kick and punch each other. It amuses me so much that I tend to imagine that I am a master of martial arts. I am really ambitious.(hehehe)

Here are some of the pictures:





Disclaimer: I don't own all the pictures. I researched it on the internet.

I don't want to tell you the story of this movie because I might give spoilers. I am really a spoiler, you know. Just watch the movie and see it for yourself. It is such a nice movie, in my opinion only. So, if you really want to know if this movie is worth watching, what are you waiting for? Go to any mall, go to the ticket booth and buy a ticket and watch. Enjoy the show!

P.S.The day we watched this movie was the day I discovered something really really bad.

It is not what is seems

Why is it when we tend to know some negative things about a particular person we tend to let other ideas manipulate our own. Is it because we have weak perceptions about things or other tend to be so convincing that we easily doubt our own opinion?
There are so many incidents that happened in my life that I betrayed my personal views.I don't know what is really the reason behind those uncertainties. All I know is that I easily be manipulated by some factors such as convincing power of other people and the way they reason out.Well I think I expect too much that I will fail to reach my own standards and expectations.I also think that the way people behave will also matter. Like for example, I never expected that this person is bad because that person seems kind but then I found out that "this person" is evil. This creature is a reptile. He cares nothing but only his own survival. He is so selfish. He only thinks about his own desires without thinking he might hurt someone. And because of that I was able to switch place and reject what I used to believe. I totally changed the way I view him. What he did was so unjust and unforgivable. He deserves to suffer. He must pay.
"Things are not what they seem" and "looks can be deceiving." What we think are not what they are most of the time and we tend to stick with what we know and what we see not knowing that it is not enough,that is why we think we are right always. But the truth is we are not.

04-17-08

I haven’t found anything sweet so I bought c2 instead. She sometimes tells me to buy her c2 whenever I go to this particular internet café and I’m always telling her that I don’t have money. But then I thought that something will happen so I decided to give her anything that whatever comes out in my mind. When she went home she had a c2 with her so I drank the c2 that I bought.
I talked to her just now and she told me that it was okay because it is what he does. So it is okay and she and her boyfriend are okay now. She is wearing the ring that her boyfriend gave her. So it means that everything is in place and everything is fine now.
Actually I was expecting to have a tragic night. It sounds mean but I think it’s not really that mean. I am not saying that I want them to argue again. I don’t know. I was just expecting something bad. Thank God it turned out good.

4-17-18

I searched the Bleach manga in onemanga.com and unfortunately there is still no update.
I can't wait to read it. The recent chapters are becoming interesting already.
I don't know why Claymore is not releasing some chapters. Maybe they stopped creating the manga. I don't know. All I know is that I want to read some more.
I remember I spent so much time staring at the screen of the monitor just to read. I am not a reader actually but reading manga is a different thing. Although moving objects are more interesting I still find it nice because it is more advanced. Even though I can't see it move, it is still good because I can somehow imagine it through the use of my imagination. Thank God the human mind is so powerful. I know mine is not great but still I am a human being. I have the ability to think.However, there are limitations.
I really can't control people so I can't control their actions. I'll have to wait until they will release some chapters. I think that's the only thing that I can do.
People, reading manga is such a nice thing to do. Anime is so lovely. So, people try to go beyond your horizon and enter the kingdom of anime. (Do I sound like I'm having an advertisement here? Sorry. It is just that anime is really good.)

Realization

How can you say that the level of your maturity increases? Is realization part of it?
I have this class in psychology that I am taking up this summer. At first I did not know who's gonna be our teacher but then someone I knew (a teacher) just went to the room where I am suppose to go. "OH MY GOD", that's what I was telling to myself. I was told that he is strict and smart. As we about to introduce ourselves, our teacher just told me if his former student is related to me. So I told him that she is my sister. And guess what he told the class? "She was one of my best students", I was happy and proud to my sister but then I admit that I am pressured because our teacher told us that he expects me to be like her. And I just said "NO SIR!". That's why I was really nervous.
Our teacher is really really smart. He knows so many words that are unknown to me. I admire him for being so smart. The only problem when he discusses is that he talks really really fast. But then I find him really really good.
He is a latecomer and I don't like it. Not because I want to attend class but because I and my friends will wait for him and we will have a make up class and he will just say make-up class is postponed. It's really annoying.
I'm not really a good student and I don't like to attend class but then psychology is different. I don't know if it's only because I like the subject or there is also a teacher factor. Maybe both.
Our teacher has this habit of telling stories and I love it. When he told us about her students who have abnormal behaviors it is really interesting and I like listening to him. I don't know but I think I just had a realization. A realization that I love counseling, that I love helping people who really need help so much. And I am thinking if this is a sign of maturity or not? I just realized that I have something that I want to do.

Discovery

I just discovered something when I and my friends bought something to eat for lunch. I don't want to think bad but I think that there is really something wrong. When that incident happened I wasn't really that affected and I did not know what other things to think about aside from telling my _ about it. My friend was even more affected than me. I was trying to tell or convince myself that it wasn't really that bad but I just realized now that it wasn't good either. I wanted to tell _ but unfortunately I have no load so I can't text her. I will have to wait until I see her. Actually, I don't know how to say it to _ because I might make her cry. Maybe I will ask her first if it's ok to treat a friend like a lover? Or maybe I can ask her if she and her friends are like that? And then I will listen to her answers. And then I will tell her what I saw. I am in the internet cafe right now. I think before I go home I will buy something sweet for anti-depressant. I want to buy 4 bananas because that's what our teacher in psych told us for anti-depressant or if we are stressed out but then I am thinking that where in the hell would I buy 4 bananas? It's already 8:35 in the evening. So I can't buy it.
I'm not really a good comforter. Actually, I don't know what to say if someone has a problem. I will just accompany that someone without saying anything. I really don't know what to do. I hope this night will be okay. So Help me GOD.

...

It appeared..hehehe..I'm happy.... I'm here in the internet cafe together with my niece. I will be sending the documents in SAD but I think it will take so much time to attach the files since there are so many to attach.. I have no choice but to wait.

I just read the Bleach manga and as usual it is good. I discovered so many interesting things and I'm looking forward to read some more.

My niece just got angry since she saw the pic of his bf together with another girl. She has a teary eyes. And now I felt guilty because I forced her to accompany me. If it wasn't because of me, she could have stayed in our boarding house and she will not see the picture.
I think it's not really a bad thing right? She will later see it.
"I'm sorry niece"

Just Testing

I'm just testing if the comment under what I've written would appear...

The worst day of my life

Click Me- The worst day of my life

Earn money through Blogvertise

I consider web blogging as one of my favorite past time. Through it, I can post my works online without me having a difficulty managing them carefully. Doing the thing I want like blogging really entertains me.
The funny thing is that I did not expect that through my passion for writing I can actually earn money from it through Blogvertise . I' m really thankful to be introduced to it. Nowadays, it's really difficult to find a job and earn money that's why through Blogvertise I can make my dreams come true. There are really people who are kind enough to create such a wonderful idea. A million thanks to them. This is real so people out there, hurry up and register on Blogvertise http://www.blogvertise.com/ as fast as you can. A certain opportunity will only happen once. I don't think you can afford to lose such a very nice opportunity.

A feeling

Sometimes we are too busy complaining that's why we tend to ignore the beautiful things in our life.

Click Me- A Feeling

A Conversation

It is just a conversation of two people. Not really interesting but I find it beautiful. I think it's a nice conversation.

Click Me- A Conversation

The Sky Is Black

We can't avoid to get hurt because of whatever bad experience we have. And this thing gives us too much pain that we want to end it very soon. We are hoping that this will not happen again.

Click Me-The sky is black

It's Not Really Bad

Being single is not bad.

Click Me-It's not really bad

I Am Longing For You

Something happened and you can't make things work the way it worked before. But still his/her absence causes you pain.

Click Me- I'm Longing For you

How Can I live?

No matter how annoying you are, I still don't want you to leave.

This is a short story about how a bond affects someone's life.

Click Me - How Can I Live

Show me how it feels

Sometimes we feel sad when we think we gave our best to someone but still that someone doesn't really care about us. What they need is your help and nothing more.

Click Me - Show Me How It Feels

A Reason

Click Me- A Reason

People Change

Click Me -People Change

My first blog

I just made my very first blog just now. Although it was a little bit strange since I don't get used to it, I still enjoyed it. I felt so weird. I normally write anything in any piece of paper that I see. But writing it online, I realized that it was better than hide whatever my mind could ever imagine. At least, other people can criticize my work. I just don't have to let it dwell inside my notebooks. It's not that I want to spread it just to impress other people. I just want suggestions and opinions that can help me improve my writing skills. Eversince I was a child I already made some poems and stories because that's my way of expressing myself. Only few people who knew about it because I was afraid that people might tease me. But I told myself now, "What if I try to make some changes"? Instead of letting my poems and stories remain hidden and let it rot, why not try to create a new image? I really wanted to make a blog but then shyness ruled over me. I was defeated by my own weakness. But now, I think I am a little bit stronger than before. So, now that I'm exposing them, people out there, whoever you are, I hope you will enjoy reading my blog. And it's better if you add comments. hehehe.