Thursday, May 15, 2008

Funny it is! No it's not!

Funny it is to know that the people who taught us to appreciate the beauty of life are actually the same persons who made us realize how cruel life is. It keeps on bothering us that sometimes we tend to question what they have first taught us.
A girl named Jin values friendship a lot. She doesn’t belong to many groups but she is friendly. She met Myca a long time ago even before in high school. She was her classmate and a friend. Myca is just a simple girl like Jin. Her beauty becomes evident despite of her simplicity. She is such a smart kid. They soon became closed friends. Jin has friends but very few of them become her favorites. Myca is one of them. Actually, of all the years that Jin is living in this world, she has only 3 favorite friends. A year later, she met Ryue who is also a smart girl and has a very strong personality. She also became her closed friend. Jin, Myca and Ryue had a very tight bond which tied them together and their friendship grew stronger. They were always with each other doing the same things all over again. And then Jin just realized that not all the moments that they have shared were good. She felt out of place sometimes and tried to ignore it. No matter how she hid her feelings towards them, it was sometimes obvious that she was hurt. What she experienced was not that bad until she found out something. Their friendship wasn’t that good as before anymore. Jin did not know the reason why it happened. She asked herself that maybe they didn’t want to be with her anymore or they wanted to be with other people whom they can find the happiness that they want. It was obvious that Myca and Ryue were happier with their new group. Pia and Marie become members of the group they created and they named it “girls”. As the “girls” went to a particular place, Jin and her other friend Krisha joined them. They were having conversations. As they talked, Pia said something which made Jin think more than twice and it wasn’t funny for her. There was also an incident that Pia said something again that was so mean. Jin was really hurt because of what she heard. She did not show it but deep inside her heart was broken. That was the most painful statement Jin heard about them. She did not know if Pia intentionally said that or it was just an accident. But whatever it was, Jin could never change the fact that she got hurt. What Pia told her was “this is the proof of how happy we are together”. Jin felt the sharp thing stabbed her heart. She even told herself “What the hell is wrong with you? Are you that insensitive? I was the first one and not you. You have no right to say it. I am their friend. We shared some unforgettable moments together before you came into the picture.” And here’s the thing, it happened right before they will go on separate ways. It was really painful for her.
Jin still cannot forget that thing no matter how she tries to forget it. It happened so many years ago but still the wound is there.
Jin learned to appreciate life with them at the same time realized that life is sometimes bitter and cruel.

Such thing is so traumatic that it becomes the reason of being unable to move forward.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mother's Day



Today is happy mother's day. Too bad I did not greet my mother in person. It is not because I don't want to. It is just that I am shy. But deep inside I really wanted to say it. Anyways, I texted her instead. It just did it now. Even though I don't show my feelings towards my mother and sometimes she's annoying, I love her and I will always love her. She is doing her best just to give her daughters everything that she can give. She is such a busy person because of us. I'm proud of my mother. My father too.My grandparents too. And to everyone who helps my parents to raise us. I want to thank my mother for raising me. I really don't know what's my purpose here on earth. All I know is that I want to live not just for myself but for my family. If I have a job already I would give everything I can for my family. I am so thankful to be here because without my existence I couldn't have the chance to be with my mother and other members of my family.

Mama Jojo! Mama Men, Tita Angie, my late Lola Fernanda....... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU!

And to all the mother's on earth..... Happy Mother's Day!